Perspective

Okay...
I pray every single day that I'll see Heavenly Father's hand in my life. And I credit this miracle to the fact that I'm not a raging crazy person who's flat raunchy to live with.
Because the trials, which are, in and of themselves, small and not too overwhelming...continue to pile on. But...this week I have this overwhelming sense of peace...almost giddy excitement...at what my future holds, because I SEE His hand in my life.
There is so much happiness in just acknowledging that no matter how many the bumps...the blessings outweigh them. For example:
I must first say that I adore my husband. He is frustratingly un-romantic. He stinks at buying gifts. His basketball shoes make my closet smell like gag-worthy death. He weighs less than I do. Always has, and likely, always will. He hates casseroles. He would happily invite 15 12-18 year old boys with us on every.single.date. we ever go on...just cause he loves them. He has weird taste in music and is a terrible dancer(in fairness, so am I).
                  And...he comes home to me every.single.night. He heads straight for me...and even if its not a movie-worthy romantic moment...I get a kiss. Then, watch out kids! He hasn't figured out, or doesn't care, that our 13 1/2 son doesn't really want kisses "Nate-style" anymore. There isn't anything he'd rather do than be here with us. He likes to play hoops to stay and shape, and run off a bad day. He would do anything for his Young Men, and melts when given the chance. He works hard to provide what we need, and a little of what we want.
I am a blessed woman.

For the last several years we've had particular struggle that has been kinda tough. And we've prayed this one out: ALOT.
My patience, like my dance skills, are sort of lacking. Its not entirely my fault. While some of you other people got in line for things like 'patience' and 'will-power', I kept getting jumped to the front of the baby-line(this is one of my favorite 'lies' to my kids)......so I may have missed a few important virtues....whatever.
Anyways...I have been kind of struggling to weather this out lately. And just like that: I now see my Heavenly Father's hand in this struggle. I even understand the timing. And the blessing that waiting has been.

And I am intirely grateful it has happened just like it has: Not my will, but Thine....